full circle

I was solemn
when you said bye bye
I was feeling guilty
because it had to be my fault.
we came full circle,
and here we are.
There was a time delay
for a moment
you were still a part of me.
I prepared myself
for those final goodbyes,
we came full circle.
you contributed to the pain,
I caused most of it.
You were stunned,
I was stunned
but it made no difference.
tears fell again and again,
over me and over you.
we were mismatched -
I knew it from the start,
we came full circle.
Every day was the same,
I was angry,
you were avoding me.
Every day was the same
I was accusing you,
and you would not defend you.
All those wonderful experiences
we shared
gone suddenly,
we came full circle.
Sweet nuthin's
that you whispered to me
I still remmebered.
You remmebered
only the parts
that suited you.
Where is the closure,
where is it?
I never felt
or found it,
we came full circle,
but you seemed
to have so easily.
Lying in her arms,
where you are now,
I feel sick thinking of it.
But what difference does it make,
I cant bring you back.
You will always be the same,
wherever you are,
never changing.
I dont trust you anymore,
we cant change things.
it was inevitable,
we came full circle,
it was hopeless,
it was finished.